Yesterday I had a conversation about you; I spoke of how much you meant to me and my family. I talked about how great of a loss we felt when you left... The ripple effect on your family, my family & the community. I felt so lost... I didn't understand... I still don't understand.
My mind is blank. I'm only thinking about her; this beautiful child of mine. She sits in my lap, her head lay upon my chest. With one arm I support and hold her close, I run my fingers through her hair and hold her face with my free hand. She smiles.
It's hard to accept the fact that I may be in a situation where I am not moving forward; not growing, not progressing. I thought that we were on the same page, moving towards one goal; forever, family, future. How is that possible, how did I let it happen again? Was I not clear in stating what I wanted? Did I not mention that I had expectations?
Posted by ESPO at 5:00 PM